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In the middle of riot in Jakarta because of the announcement of the elected president for 2019-2024 my brain still have willingness to think about someone that barely know me..
I have no idea why, but I still can't differentiate between obsession and feeling. Actually a week ago I have nothing to do, so as usual I began stalking his instagram. To my surprise someone asked his line id on his instagram, so I tried to searched it.
As I saw his display picture my eye was trembling couldn't believe what I have seen. I wish I could unseen that display picture on his line.
There is a girl on his display picture on Line , long black haired girl showing her middle finger. Seems like it was a "post a picture" photo that the girl sent to him. I felt so brokenhearted, until unconciously I shed tears. I don't even know who she is, and I don't want to know.

Yes, I know I shouldn't cried at the moment. But sadly I did.  Crying over someone that barely know me, he just knew my name and our relationship is no other than seeing each other instastory.
It's been a month or so since the last time we met in front of the hall, suddenly you popped out of nowhere I was so shocked our eyes met in a mere second. But it was all that matter to me..
All I can do is praying to Allah, telling him as much as story that I can tell. Wishing that He gave me permission to know him more, giving me a way to do so. Wishing He could open Raqi's heart and let me in.

Luckily I have a friend of mine that suddenly crushed on a stranger too, at least I have someone to talk to about my weird feeling because we have similiar story.

Hi Raqi, I wish I can talk to you as much as I can in the future. I wish that I have you as someone to say i'm home to..
I don't freaking care if you have girlfriend because I believe my prayer is stronger than that girl do.

Take care dear, wishing you have a smooth final exam eventho we are fasting. Cheering you up from afar because I have no authority to tell you directly :)

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