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Kira-kira sudah tiga bulan lamanya seseorang ini mengisi hari-hari ku tanpa ada sosok yang hadir di hadapan ku, dia hanya sebatas imaji dan pikiran. Terbelenggu dalam otakku dan sangat sulit untuk keluar. Sudah beberapa post di blog ku ini mengenainya, memang cinta itu inspirasi dari segala inspirasi. Haha apalah itu cinta, seonggok hal yang bisa membuat manusia hilang akal. Aku menyelesaikan semester enam ku dengan indahnya, nilai toefl ku ditarik oleh dosen tetapi still manage to get an A, dan hanya aku yang mendapat A (katanya). Januari lalu ada seorang bangsat yang membelenggu otakku saat UAS semester 5, dan aku sangat menyesal karenanya.  Dan kali ini  UAS semester enam pikiranku dibelenggu oleh seseorang yang bahkan tidak pernah berbicara dengan ku sama sekali. Sungguh aku sangat lelah dengan pikiran ku sendiri, karena aku selalu tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa tentang perasaan ku ini. Gengsi untuk memulai duluan, takut akan respon yang di dapat. Dan takut pada kenyataan a...

hampa

In the middle of riot in Jakarta because of the announcement of the elected president for 2019-2024 my brain still have willingness to think about someone that barely know me.. I have no idea why, but I still can't differentiate between obsession and feeling. Actually a week ago I have nothing to do, so as usual I began stalking his instagram. To my surprise someone asked his line id on his instagram, so I tried to searched it. As I saw his display picture my eye was trembling couldn't believe what I have seen. I wish I could unseen that display picture on his line. There is a girl on his display picture on Line , long black haired girl showing her middle finger. Seems like it was a "post a picture" photo that the girl sent to him. I felt so brokenhearted, until unconciously I shed tears. I don't even know who she is, and I don't want to know. Yes, I know I shouldn't cried at the moment. But sadly I did.  Crying over someone that barely know me, he jus...