Happiness Delight

before going to university I vowed to my self to push my limits in everything that I will do later in uni-life. And seems like I did. But why I did this back in 2016? Because I don't want to regret anything in my teenager phase. As simple as that. I just want to reminiscence my uni life as: passionate, hard work, go beyond the limit.  I want to have a big smile if I remembering my past life in uni. I was so furious about study, about organizations, about economy. I just want to pust my limit to the end so I won't blame my self for being not good enough in uni. Well at least I tried, better than not risking anything. Masih muda, jatah gagal gue masih banyak. And i'm so afraid. Realizing myself sooo ambitious comparing to other classmates sometimes made me afraid, Oh am I doing too much? Am I crossing the line? But in fact I am not, I just have something different, I have my own dream, and meanwhile I am paving the way to go there. Maybe another student have different ...

can you believe me if I tell you, the guy that I mentioned in previous post is liking me back?  Yes, It was and it is not a one sided love. It is the same case as the one that I have experienced back in high school, my crush liked me back and I have no idea about that, and I found that later he liked me back. It is the same thing. Among other girls crushed on him, why am I the one ? Even though there is someone that he crushed on before me, I still got shocked. He still is crushed the girl before me, and i'm not complaining. I just can't believe that I got this shocking truth.  He never shows weird gestures or odd behaviour around me. That's why when everyone told me that he seems oddly 'different' when he treated me, and honestly though I didn't believe them. Because I didn't even felt that way, and didn't realize being treated like that. I'm still drowning in my daydream, because this is so dreamy. This is the thing that I wanted s...