whoops, I didn't know that

can you believe me if I tell you, the guy that I mentioned in previous post is liking me back? 
Yes, It was and it is not a one sided love.

It is the same case as the one that I have experienced back in high school, my crush liked me back and I have no idea about that, and I found that later he liked me back. It is the same thing.

Among other girls crushed on him, why am I the one ?
Even though there is someone that he crushed on before me, I still got shocked. He still is crushed the girl before me, and i'm not complaining. I just can't believe that I got this shocking truth. 

He never shows weird gestures or odd behaviour around me. That's why when everyone told me that he seems oddly 'different' when he treated me, and honestly though I didn't believe them. Because I didn't even felt that way, and didn't realize being treated like that. I'm still drowning in my daydream, because this is so dreamy. This is the thing that I wanted since ever last year. But there is some circumstances that made me couldn't go to him and vice versa. The world is againts us.

I felt so blessed. So blessed that he gave me so much attention and care. Back then when I prayed a lot, and mentioned him in every pray, and the night pray, the shalawat. It all matters. Everything I said in my prayer seems more and more close to me. Allah granted this for me, for all the things I wish could happen. And I am so thankful to Allah. For this abundant love. There is nothing impossible, there is nothing such as useless pray.

The guy I admire so much is liking me back. And. I. Can't. Believe. The. Truth.
But the world is againts us.





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