Knight in Shining Armour
Have you ever felt that you have already found your destiny ? Maybe about life path, things you like, college major, and your one and only person you fallen in love with ?
For some reason, I think I did found someone that I really into him until I felt he was my destiny. You know, teenager phase.
For years I told my story here, even not the vivid one, but I did mention it. From the first I started liking him when I was in middle school, when he realised that I like him, and when he replies all my messages, until our farewell. I've always mentioned that he knew that I liked him, but he just kept it cool, not ignoring me but yet not giving me a hope, such a good guy isn't he ?
But things are not always happen like the way we want it. He had a girlfriend in 2014, and until now. Whoa. It's okay don't pity me, because i'm okay. gaaaah!
The thing is, if I fallen with someone it's mean I will like him for years and years, and yes! I freaking did. Can you imagine I spent my highschool life wondering about the guy that maybe didn't even remember me anymore, but I just couldn't stop it. When I liked someone, I really did, and I meant it.
I like him not because his background or because he is freaking handsome or whatsoever, I just did like him. My heart choose him without asking my permission to do it. I'm so frustating because what? I FREAKING LIKE HIM SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL AND NOW I'M IN UNI. Frustating af. Yet i'm in the same uni with him and his gf. And glad never met both of 'em.
You know? I did several things to forget him. I was liking my classmate though when I was a sophomore in highschool, but he is such a dick till now, so I didn't make any move. I do like my classmate again when I was in an academy, till now I am still liking the guy to make my heart forget the main guy that has been wandering around in my heart for six fxxxing year.
Yesterday I met my friend, she has a friend that going to the same school with us and the 'friend' is in the same major and the same class with the 'guy' girlfriend that he has been dated since 2014. I ask my friend to do a favor to ask her friend that going to the same major and same class to ask some question because i'm so curious about what he is up to right now. I'm so curious to death because I haven't seen him in ages. My friend replied like this. "Maw could you just not curious about him anymore? could you just stop? How many years already maw?". It really did pinch my heart and slapped me right in the face. I was like "right I must stop". Stop curious about him, stop thinking about him, stop searching for him if I'm going to his major building. And I think this would be the last post about him I guess. Next I will post something important in this blog. Really this would be the last. Hallo Ri thank you for filling my heart for the past 5 years, it meant a lot! good luck on your medical bachelor.
Moving on to the guy that I like to forgot this 5 years unrequited love. I did liking him for years till now, haha. But I felt like I like him for a reason, and I like him because his appreance, his smart-ass brain, his kind heart. He was a taciturn boy, and he is still a taciturn. I felt like my heart was liking him voluntarily, my brain told my heart to do that. Because that was a forced feeling. And sometimes I felt bad. He was attending high class senior high school, while I am in the middle class. He was so smart till I really believed he would accepted in ITB, but he wasnt. Instead, he was accepted in a governor uni in palembang. I'm so relieved when I heard that, because he deserve it. And at the same time I realized he is so far away, 20.000 kilometers away from Bandung.
But what's the matter with that? Even though he is in Bandung that doesn't really affect me by the way. Whether he is in Bandung nor Palembang, he never gives a fuck. The fact that he just read my line, it really woken me up. I shoudn't too forward. The result is I just hoping from the back, and just sending my prayer to him because I can't do anything with my feeling. And i'm sorry if I making you uncomfortable bi.
I like him not because his background or because he is freaking handsome or whatsoever, I just did like him. My heart choose him without asking my permission to do it. I'm so frustating because what? I FREAKING LIKE HIM SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL AND NOW I'M IN UNI. Frustating af. Yet i'm in the same uni with him and his gf. And glad never met both of 'em.
You know? I did several things to forget him. I was liking my classmate though when I was a sophomore in highschool, but he is such a dick till now, so I didn't make any move. I do like my classmate again when I was in an academy, till now I am still liking the guy to make my heart forget the main guy that has been wandering around in my heart for six fxxxing year.
Yesterday I met my friend, she has a friend that going to the same school with us and the 'friend' is in the same major and the same class with the 'guy' girlfriend that he has been dated since 2014. I ask my friend to do a favor to ask her friend that going to the same major and same class to ask some question because i'm so curious about what he is up to right now. I'm so curious to death because I haven't seen him in ages. My friend replied like this. "Maw could you just not curious about him anymore? could you just stop? How many years already maw?". It really did pinch my heart and slapped me right in the face. I was like "right I must stop". Stop curious about him, stop thinking about him, stop searching for him if I'm going to his major building. And I think this would be the last post about him I guess. Next I will post something important in this blog. Really this would be the last. Hallo Ri thank you for filling my heart for the past 5 years, it meant a lot! good luck on your medical bachelor.
Moving on to the guy that I like to forgot this 5 years unrequited love. I did liking him for years till now, haha. But I felt like I like him for a reason, and I like him because his appreance, his smart-ass brain, his kind heart. He was a taciturn boy, and he is still a taciturn. I felt like my heart was liking him voluntarily, my brain told my heart to do that. Because that was a forced feeling. And sometimes I felt bad. He was attending high class senior high school, while I am in the middle class. He was so smart till I really believed he would accepted in ITB, but he wasnt. Instead, he was accepted in a governor uni in palembang. I'm so relieved when I heard that, because he deserve it. And at the same time I realized he is so far away, 20.000 kilometers away from Bandung.
But what's the matter with that? Even though he is in Bandung that doesn't really affect me by the way. Whether he is in Bandung nor Palembang, he never gives a fuck. The fact that he just read my line, it really woken me up. I shoudn't too forward. The result is I just hoping from the back, and just sending my prayer to him because I can't do anything with my feeling. And i'm sorry if I making you uncomfortable bi.
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