Drowning in my own daydreamin'
I don't know how to start this story, because this make my cringe....
But you know that the affect of 'suggest' your self?
Like you are in state of really nervous and you says to your self 'you can do this'. And then you did it!
So this is maybe really laughable because i'm so pitiful right now, really confused what should I do.
So I have this one friend that really perfect in any ways, he is handsome, kind, smart, yet TALL, T-A-L-L, how can he fit to my type?
He is my classmate in course in eleventh grade, so we were no longer classmate now. Somehow I just talking 'bout him all day with my friend, and it getting worse day by day. We were just joking anyway because he is so perfect. And you know....... at this situation, school probs, family probs, and all these things make me so dizzy , we need someone we can lean on, aren't we?
So what do you think where the story will goes after that statement?
Yes, gue baper.
By the day passed, in a blink of an eye, it becomes habits talking about him, admiring him from afar like a crazy girl, even I knew that he no longer remember me again. Even when we meet a couple weeks before he didn't even greet me. And suddenly the story began with the things that I really want to stop, I don't know why I can became like this , but I starting to day dreaming.
How if he becomes mine, what if he is the best for me, what if we really ended up together, and so many another version of the what if......
It's so impossible for me to get closer with him, in this situasion that he not even think about me maybe since the last time we met and talk to each other?
It's become an obsession, it becomes part of my day, always imagining this and that about him. Even he didn't add me back in line ever since we became a classmate, don't know why but maybe he just don't care.
He is taciturn, but in fact he is such a good boy that you can talk with. He is a smiley boy, he has semi-red hair because he has white-skin. I wouldn't like him because I know he is too handsome for me, But he distracted me, he is my dreamy boy that doesnt exist in my school.
But I don't deserve him because he is too perfect for me, I know. Im just some of a mere potatoes that just can dreaming.
It's killing me, really. Thinking of someone that doesn't even remember you everyday. It's so painful because I realise I can't be with someone for the rest of my high school life. Saddening.
He never touch a girl's heart. I always think,if we really meant to be he will leading me in a good way, and we can admiring each other while waiting for the future.
I always warned my self because it's really impossible to happen, because I am so reluctance to talk with my friends about my feeling towards the guy that we always dreaming of.
I sought to send him a little greeting through my teacher, and I said just tell him it's from secret admirer. But I don't know maybe my teacher forgot to tell him about that,.
There is no way I can get close with him. But I also afraid if my expectation of his personality is really different from the real life. Nonetheless I always praying, if he really good for me, I hope he will come close to me.
Wishing I won't being an imaginary forever.
With Love, Mawar.
For the faraway bee.
But you know that the affect of 'suggest' your self?
Like you are in state of really nervous and you says to your self 'you can do this'. And then you did it!
So this is maybe really laughable because i'm so pitiful right now, really confused what should I do.
So I have this one friend that really perfect in any ways, he is handsome, kind, smart, yet TALL, T-A-L-L, how can he fit to my type?
He is my classmate in course in eleventh grade, so we were no longer classmate now. Somehow I just talking 'bout him all day with my friend, and it getting worse day by day. We were just joking anyway because he is so perfect. And you know....... at this situation, school probs, family probs, and all these things make me so dizzy , we need someone we can lean on, aren't we?
So what do you think where the story will goes after that statement?
Yes, gue baper.
By the day passed, in a blink of an eye, it becomes habits talking about him, admiring him from afar like a crazy girl, even I knew that he no longer remember me again. Even when we meet a couple weeks before he didn't even greet me. And suddenly the story began with the things that I really want to stop, I don't know why I can became like this , but I starting to day dreaming.
How if he becomes mine, what if he is the best for me, what if we really ended up together, and so many another version of the what if......
It's so impossible for me to get closer with him, in this situasion that he not even think about me maybe since the last time we met and talk to each other?
It's become an obsession, it becomes part of my day, always imagining this and that about him. Even he didn't add me back in line ever since we became a classmate, don't know why but maybe he just don't care.
He is taciturn, but in fact he is such a good boy that you can talk with. He is a smiley boy, he has semi-red hair because he has white-skin. I wouldn't like him because I know he is too handsome for me, But he distracted me, he is my dreamy boy that doesnt exist in my school.
But I don't deserve him because he is too perfect for me, I know. Im just some of a mere potatoes that just can dreaming.
It's killing me, really. Thinking of someone that doesn't even remember you everyday. It's so painful because I realise I can't be with someone for the rest of my high school life. Saddening.
He never touch a girl's heart. I always think,if we really meant to be he will leading me in a good way, and we can admiring each other while waiting for the future.
I always warned my self because it's really impossible to happen, because I am so reluctance to talk with my friends about my feeling towards the guy that we always dreaming of.
I sought to send him a little greeting through my teacher, and I said just tell him it's from secret admirer. But I don't know maybe my teacher forgot to tell him about that,.
There is no way I can get close with him. But I also afraid if my expectation of his personality is really different from the real life. Nonetheless I always praying, if he really good for me, I hope he will come close to me.
Wishing I won't being an imaginary forever.
With Love, Mawar.
For the faraway bee.
Komentar
Posting Komentar